Words of Wisdom..

(Always puts me in a good mood)

The saying goes, if you can't explain it to a 5th grader, you don't really understand it. And the same is true about one's feelings and thoughts. You can think about it, journal about it and what not, but until you talk about things and verbalize your thoughts, they aren't fully out there. When you are talking to a group of younger kids, it's such a humbling feeling. You know the ropes, and the bumps they are going through and are at the center of their universe, are mere molehills in your rearview mirror. It is true that with age comes wisdom. And it really is true that in just a few years one can grow so much. Even last night talking with kids just two years younger, there seemed to be such a difference in thoughts and perceptions of the world. And that brings up the question, what was I like that two years ago? We always think we are so mature for our age and are "different" than everyone else. But when you then hang out with people that are younger, you can't seem to fathom that you once acted like them. So I was talking to a few people in the study abroad program here in Bangkok, just one of those conversations that covers everything from "do you believe in God?" to talking about dinosaurs, conspiracy theories, capitalism, crazy Bruno stories and the feeling you get when a girl makes you feel like the most special guy in the world. It was great. Kind of like that first epic talk we had in that little park in Baltimore. But  it was awesome to hear their opinions of relationships and love. We were all on totally different pages. That's what made the conversation great. But then I started talking my relationship. And they were so amazed that I was in a long distance relationship while in Bangkok, they didn't get why. They figured being in Bangkok meant being with random Thai girls, and getting with girls in their group. They thought that being with someone in a long distance relationship wasn't worth it. If you cant have sex with someone is there a point of being with them? All I could do when they said that was laugh. There is so much more to relationships than short term gains. If that's what they are about, then there is no point. Relationships are meant to help you get to the places you want to get to. Your flaws are their perfections and vice versa. You both come together in order to become better people. Even if you can't be around the person on a daily basis, that doesn't mean you can't progress as a couple. If you want to be the best possible couple then you have to do so in whatever the situation arises. The joy of seeing you at the airport in March is going to be worth it. And so much more rewarding that hooking up with Thai girls, or finding someone to have a summer fling  with. That is not how I operate. I'm in this for the long haul. A really insighful person once told me "Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..." They say you must experience the pain before you can fully experience they pleasure. And that is totally true with relationships. You don't fully realize how good something is until it's gone. There really is nothing that could come up Brianna, that would stop our current situation. I would wait as long as it takes to be with you. 

 You shouldn't be in a relationship with someone if you don't think they would do just about anything for you. And with 100% certainty, I know we would do whatever. I don't know anyone else like you B. You are wacky, funny, compassionate, summer lovin', adoring, and beautiful. Heck I can picture you dressed in a tank top and shorts, with oddly colored and mismatching socks on, hair a mess, in you room, blasting country music doing a crazy ol' dance.  I can picture you sitting outside somewhere sippin' on a BLL just thinking how the moment you are in is the best situation in the world to be in. I can picture you laying in MY bed all snuggled up and just wishing to be in your spot. You make me smile Brianna, every day. Even the days im down in the dumps, or in one of my crazy stress out, irrational moods. I still think of you and know that everything is alright. And it will be.