When you are off living by yourself, there aren't that many things that attach you to anything. You can come and go as you please, and you only act when you really feel like acting. Things are fully up to you. There is no one to tell you when to go to bed, or anyone elses obligations that you have to fulfill.
Living in Bangkok and having everyone I know back home makes things feel distant at times. All that on top of trying to figure out how to somehow find a job and make things work on those fronts. Im trying to find something I remotely enjoy doing, while staying close to home and to the heart. Right now I have no idea where I might be in one year, and that is totally ok by me.
When you have basically everything you want, there isn't much to talk about. It's more about then using what you have. You know. I just want to go out there and go to national parks. I want to go to the beach. I want to BBQ. I want to stay up late and go for a walk around the neighborhood just listening to treefrogs. But where I am is not where I have been imagining being. When my mom came to visit it put things in perspective and gave me a real taste of home. And with Bri there, and family, well mom, dad, nana and grampy, It really makes me want to be there. To take in everything that is offered and make the most of my time. That is probably why I get bogged down the most, I'm always trying to make the most of my time, and often times in that am not making the most of my time.
Just get me to a backroad asap.....
But it is crazy what idle time can do to the mind. Most people talk about not having enough time, so they are stressed and tired after a day of work. My work is over and the horizon is clear.
I have some huge opportunities coming this summer with roadtrips planned to Tennessee and Kentucky. The large music festival is going to finally happen this summer as well. Wow that has been so overdue. Alas, summer. Freedom of mind.
Going to Sri Lanka tomorrow for 2 weeks, should be something. Surfing, jungles and who knows what. Photos to come.
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