Knowledge of Self

I always tend to think that when you think about something too often, it becomes so aware to your consciousness because it is always on your mind. And on the flip side, if you never think about something, it usually isn't picked up in your  daily perception. I always think of this in terms of cars. If you say and think that there are so many silver cars on the road, then you are going to notice all of the silver cars because it is is your direct state of memory. And you will overlook the other cars, because you aren't focusing your entire attention on them.

This can been see on so many other levels, especially when it comes to our personalities. "Ignorance is bliss" is an example of this, meaning if you don't think of something, it doesn't really "exist" because perception is reality. If you go through life, ignoring worldly news, ignoring negative things about you or the relationships you have, and ignoring your role in the universe, then you will never have a fair estimate of who you really are. We can't all be the center of attention all of the time. There are times for that, but focusing on things from the most objective terms you can imagine will help you to create positive relationships with the people and environment around you.

Looking back and thinking about how the things you do affect the people around you, is one of the most classic lessons we are taught, but it is also one of things things that people have the hardest time with. Realizing your faults and coming to terms with them is a huge sign of maturity. I'm not perfect, and I don't know anyone that truly is, so we all have things that we can work on and do to make ourselves and the people around us comfortable.

I never really thought of this but everyone sort of  creates their own "versions" of memories. So everyone has their own bias in remembering memories and then creates sort of their own world that they live in. A world with their rules. So that even when people do "bad" things, they sort of dismiss them from their mind and only focus on "good" things. So that you almost forget times that you were bad and thus create a false reality that you put yourself in.

Sort of a weird logic, but I think many people do this. It seems like it leads to a life that can be smashed in at any minute, and people's realities crash in on themselves. No one really acts completely illogically, I mean in the moment people usually have a certain justification for what they are doing. So that makes things really interesting when people act in a way that you can't understand at all; I mean they aren't doing things intentionally wrong (unless they are sociopathic, and that is a whole 'nother blog topic)

However, this world that we create for ourselves can come crashing down if you eventually realize that what is was compromised of, was actually based on a misinterpretation of things. Thats why is it always important to be honest with yourself. You should try to always be aware of your actions and comments and how they affect you and others around you. If you do something awesome, then be pumped, thats how you should feel. Always take time in your day to do things that just make you feel good. But then on the other hand, if you mess up, don't meet a certain goal, fail a test, go through a breakup, get a negative review at work, or even something much smaller like show up late for something, or say something stupid to a friend, you shouldn't let those things crash in your world. They are significant events and in the moment seem like the entire world, but don't let seemingly bad things that happen to you get in the way of your character. Just because something bad happens to you doesn't mean you are a bad person. But on the other hand, you shouldn't ignore the bad things that happen to you, and pretend like nothing happened. Things usually don't work out for a particular reason. You didn't study enough or took too long and were late to something. If you did something wrong, it's ok, but you should always think about ways to improve your behaviors so that these things dont happen again. No one can be perfect, but you should set your goals high. Even if you stumble, maybe even stumble a few times, you should always be thinking about the top of the tree. It is important to have goals in mind and a person you want to be. You have to hold yourself to a standard, or you almost drift off into like a summer vacation mode where you sort of become useless by the end. Dream of the person you want to be, then go out there and be him. Even if you fall, or eff up, just be better the next time, that's all you can ask for.

Or you can just love, because that usually works for me..